Las horas y los días
"There’ s a word in Spanish, I suppose you know. I wonder if it’s any longer in use. Instead of saying ‘to wake up’, you say recordarse , that is, to record yourself, to remember yourself. My mother used to say Que me recuerde a las ocho . ‘I want to be recorded to myself at eight.’ Every morning I get that feeling because I am more or less nonexistent. Then when I wake up, I always feel I’m being let down. Because, well, here I am. Here’s the same old stupid game going on. I have to be somebody. I have to be exactly that somebody. I have certain commitments. One of the commitments is to live through the whole day. Then I see all that routine before me, and all thing naturally make me tired. Of course when you’re young, you don’t fell that way. You feel, well, I am so glad I’m back in this marvellous world. But I don’t think I ever felt that way. Even when I was young. Especially when I was young. Now I have resignation. Now I wake up and I say: I have to face another day. I let i